So, what's next??

I haven't posted in a while. I had family over at our new home and I went to Mexico for a week. And no offense to Mexicans, but boy, so far I am glad I did not move there. I think I would spend most of my time extremely frustrated. I had my frustrations in Brazil and in the U.S. too, but nothing seems to work when I'm in Mexico. I can't communicate and then, of course, nothing gets done. I feel incapable of getting thing I take for granted done. And now  it's about time for us to make a decision about where we want to live and we really don't know what to do. We always ask ourselves the same question over and over: What will be the best for our family?


So far the super commute is working fine. But we still haven't been thru a hurricane season with all the flights delays and cancellations.


In Brazil I was frustrated and would complain a lot about how to get things done for the entire first year of the relocation. The same happens every time I visit Mexico. And it upsets my husband. And when I'm in Florida I'm happy. For whatever reason I deal with the frustrations better over here. My husband loves to come home and find all of us happy. Even if for this he has to fly for 3 yours each way. if we're happy, he's happy. If i start complaining about everything all the time it will created problems in our marriage.


And changing schools again... Sending the kids to a school that I believe to be not up to my standards is taking my sleep away.  But if we're going to do it, I need to submit the application now. Finding new doctors, dentists... And I wasn't impressed with the hospital either. In a way Sao Paulo kind of spoiled me.


Having the kids learn a new language, make new friends and put up with a lot of stress related to a move again. Is it fair with them? They are happy here. They are over the grief of leaving friends behind. They are making new friends and they love the after school activities they're enrolled in. Most of all they love to be understood whenever they speak. They are thrilled with one thing we take for granted - they can communicate with everyone.


And there's the loneliness. It is not easy to find people with the same likes and interests and make friends. Plus, if i am sick, who will take care of the kids? If my husband gets sick who will take care of him?


Yes, we would all be together, I would have help to take care of the house, a driver, etc. But that's it. And I don't need the help to be happy. So I wonder: What is more important, to be together and unhappy or to put up with all the traveling and spend the time with have together happy?


And my husband loves Florida. We go to the beach every weekend, we enjoy our pool even during winter - most houses here have pools -, the school is good, the kids are making friends, we've been having lots of friends and family over. We've been spending a lot of quality time together here. And doing lots of outdoor activities too.


Some people are lucky and have adventurous relatives and friends who will travel abroad to visit them, but this is not our case. We had no guests in Brazil. But in Florida... We feel like we're running a B&B and we will soon have to start taking reservations from them not to overbook our house. And they are very open about the fact that they will come here but they won't go to Mexico City to visit us. And after all the time living abroad it's been great for the kids to reconnect with the family.


And almost a year has gone by. We have two more years to go. And then what? A new country? Maybe... Decisions... Decisions.... We need to think a lot now not to regret our decision later. I wish I had a crystal ball to predict our future.